Cycle ???

I’ve stopped counting my cycles. Infertility has stopping running my life. Do I still think about from time to time? Of course usually when someone asks, or a TV show or a book I’m reading. A first I thought infertility wasn’t really talked about but it’s everywhere. The book I’m reading the main character had endometriosis and had suffered from a miscarriage. I keep wondering why I am getting lead down this path, this journey, maybe that’s why. Maybe my body can’t handle pregnancy and God doesn’t think I can go through the grief of a miscarriage. I know this is the path I’m supposed to be on, because it’s made me stronger, Cody and I have a different outlook for our family; and we have bonded more than ever.
We have also had some difficult discussions about; age, race, disabilities that we think we will be able to handle etc. If any of our friends or family members want to understand more I recommend reading Three Little Words by Rhodes-courter. It will make you cry but you will understand a little more of what the child and what we will be going through during the first couple months and even years later. For our family I really recommend the webinar Conspicuous Families on (Let me know and I’ll give you the logon)
We are in the final stages of the home study and have one visit left with our social worker that will be held in our home. We will have to be completed within the next 60 days (time line the background checks last). During this time we are preparing the house and doing any fixer upper things so we can focus on our family when the time comes.
We are still trying to raise money as I want to be able to take some maternity leave which will be unpaid. So I have started making some things. If any of you are interested message me and I’ll let you know cost.

Thank you all who have supported us and continue to support us. We are extremely excited for the next chapter.


Staying Stress Free

Let’s face it, I will never truly be stress free.  When you are struggling with infertility the stress level is always higher. Even when you “take a month off” from tracking, you are not really taking the month off.  It’s not something that is easily forgotten. The stress about what is next will always be there? When will it be our turn? What will our friendsand family think if we adopt? Will they be as supportive like during fertility treatments? Will I ever be okay with not having a biological child? The thinking and questions are endless, but you learn to cope. Here are things I do to relieve some of the stress and keep my mind preoccupied.

Exercise! Well duh! You hear all the time because it has been proven that exercise helps with stress. I have a personal trainer (Emily) who I work out with atleast 3 times a week. I call these my personal therapy lessons. HA. I have some awesome work out buddies who encourage me as well. My mom, twin sister and my sister-in-law!

I am becoming Crafty! I recently purchased a Silhouette Cameo. It is a craft cutting machine. I have been making cups, t-shirts, home decor, and a few cool surprises for my sister-in-law’s bridal shower!  I have also recently started coloring.  The adult coloring books are quite relaxing. I can color for hours and I lose all track of time.

Gardening! With spring in the air, I have started my garden. We hope to grow our vegetable garden this year and I have already started the seeds! These are my babies right now! I can’t wait to see these guys start spouting! Our last years garden over grew as you can see. haha