TTC and Adoption Update

I wanted to give everyone an update. In a previous post I stated I was going to do the surgery for my endometriosis. Well…you see I never scheduled it. For a couple reasons, timing, scared, unknown, etc. We still feel the timing just isn’t right, and I just don’t want to know the answers that might come from it. 1) I have endometriosis. 2) I don’t have endometriosis, THEN WHATS MY PROBLEM? You see where I’m going with this. Cody and I talk all the time about what we want to do, and we both agree to put it on hold for a little longer and continue to have hope.  We are still trying, every once in awhile I take a month off of OPKs but that’s all we are doing.

The adoption is taking a lot longer than I thought. And the whole process has been heart breaking for me. My heart is so open to love, every child I see I have some sort of pull to. But we haven’t found our match but are hopeful we will.

That’s all I have for now. Nothing really huge as happened but if it does you will know.



Cycle ???

I’ve stopped counting my cycles. Infertility has stopping running my life. Do I still think about from time to time? Of course usually when someone asks, or a TV show or a book I’m reading. A first I thought infertility wasn’t really talked about but it’s everywhere. The book I’m reading the main character had endometriosis and had suffered from a miscarriage. I keep wondering why I am getting lead down this path, this journey, maybe that’s why. Maybe my body can’t handle pregnancy and God doesn’t think I can go through the grief of a miscarriage. I know this is the path I’m supposed to be on, because it’s made me stronger, Cody and I have a different outlook for our family; and we have bonded more than ever.
We have also had some difficult discussions about; age, race, disabilities that we think we will be able to handle etc. If any of our friends or family members want to understand more I recommend reading Three Little Words by Rhodes-courter. It will make you cry but you will understand a little more of what the child and what we will be going through during the first couple months and even years later. For our family I really recommend the webinar Conspicuous Families on (Let me know and I’ll give you the logon)
We are in the final stages of the home study and have one visit left with our social worker that will be held in our home. We will have to be completed within the next 60 days (time line the background checks last). During this time we are preparing the house and doing any fixer upper things so we can focus on our family when the time comes.
We are still trying to raise money as I want to be able to take some maternity leave which will be unpaid. So I have started making some things. If any of you are interested message me and I’ll let you know cost.

Thank you all who have supported us and continue to support us. We are extremely excited for the next chapter.

This Cycle is Different

Sorry I’ve been MIA again, I hope to get better at this blogging thing. Today is CD 3 another failed cycle, but I don’t feel the heartache quite so much anymore. My heart is full force moving forward with adoption, I am thankful for that. After months of disappointment, I’m not disappointed this month. I didn’t cry or get angry. This is a beginning of a new chapter for Cody and I. A huge chapter that I have nothing to be sad or angry about.We are beginning our family in a less than conventional way but we will be a family.

Things are moving along! We start the first day of training on Saturday, have been given our social worker and have received our packet in the mail. During this time we are getting the house ready to bring someone or someones home, to their home.

Adoption Fundraiser Garage Sale!

Mark your calendars for Saturday, May 21st.
We’re having an adoption fundraiser garage sale!
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I’m so excited to announce that we’re planning a big garage sale on Saturday, May 21 from 8am-2pm to help build our adoption fund.  We’re thinking HUGE and we’d love your help!  I’ve read of many similar adoption sales bringing in anywhere from $1000-$4000 (CRAZY) so I’m praying that Lord uses this in mighty ways to help us. Please pray along with me!
What You Can Do
1)  Set aside stuff to donate to our sale (clothes, toys, electronics, games, decorations, furniture, etc.).  If you’re planning to donate clothing, it might be helpful to bag it according to size or at least baby/child/adult.  Let us know and we will be able to pick it up.
2)  Consider helping me run this crazy thing.  I definitely cannot do this on my own!  If you’d like to help by lending a table to place items on, volunteer to assist in pricing things, help me set out the stuff in the wee hours of the morning that Saturday, sign up to help handle the money during part of the sale, or volunteer to help tear down after it’s over, please let me know.  You can leave me a comment below if you’re interested.
3) Pray for beautiful weather and generous buyers!  
I’m so excited to be able to join with you to do this.  I love that adoption is such a community thing where we can join together to reflect God’s heart.  I can’t wait to see how the Lord uses this to help us gather the resources we need to adopt!  Thank you so much for considering.

Clarke’s Adoption Fund

Cody and I decided to start a gofundme page. It was tough, we both hate asking for help. We have an opportunity to move up our PRIDE training to May and realized this is a blessing. With weeks of trying to go through our local social services and trying get answers and training dates, we finally got an answer of indefinitely. They don’t know when they will be able to hold the training so we decided to move forward with a private agency. Needless to say we are moving at lighting speed compared to local social services. We are extremely excited to be moving forward and can’t wait to go through this process!